....hats off to my soul mates!!

Do you believe in Kindred Spirits...Soul Mates?

I do.

To a lot of people a Soul Mate is a romantic figure...Someone who you might see across a room...your eyes meet and you feel a call, a recognition.  When you're close you might actually feel a mingling of your energies as they dance together....It's a giddy, heady, experience...You've felt it....I know you have.

I believe in that romantic meeting of spirits...but I also believe we had many Kidnreds who ar not of the romantic kind...

Looking at people who have come into my life I realize so many people have come  to move me along my karmic journey and maybe me them.

Some times it's really clear why a Kindred shows up, we easily know why they've come.  My Circle Sisters found each other in the most synchronistic  ways....We came together to create a space to explore being women on spiritual journeys...We are Kindreds.

Seven, or so years ago I met a woman I was instantly drawn to...We were like magnets.  The thing we had in common was the desire to get our art out from under the bed and into the world.  We weren't brave enough to approach galleries So we held hands and rented a RUSTIC 10 x10 Kiosk in our local Village and opened our own ...Feather Moon ...she was Josie Two Feathers and I was 13 Moon...We opened on a shoe string...$200 per month...no utilities, no air, no heat...an adventure. And we'd only known each other a month.

We had the support of our spiritual family and people bought what we offered....

But Josie and I quickly discovered that we only shared to vision of having a place to show our art....not how to run a business..  and there was another little glitch that turned big...She was Native American...I'm white.

Our journey in the world was so very different.  Yet we came together on a mission.  I learned a lot from Josie and how profoundly our experiences can color who we see in front of us.  There were many tears, as she said, 'we can't mix medicine'...and so we couldn't.,,,Josie moved away and I kept Feather Moon for a couple of years...I consider Josie on of my most influential Kindreds...We met and ignited a dream...She gave me confidence...and she taught me some big lessons about relationships.  I hope she took something from me when our soul business together was complete.

And that's something else...Time together....my romantic side says once you meet a kindred or soul mate they should be with us forever in human form...but of course that isn't true...they come and go...

A year ago our twins were born, my tiny little grandsons...not much bigger than my hand.....Monday was the one year anniversary of the passing of our Phoenix....3 days old...Three weeks later Haiven passed...They were here for such a short time yet had such a huge impact...I know they were Kindreds ..They opened all of us involved in loving them so much...taught us things about ourselves, our family ties, our spiritual family, our friends...all good stuff, mixed with incredible pain.  And surely some karmic debt was paid with that pain,,,Pain that can still instantly rise to the surface.

My daughters are Kindreds, Soul Mates....I learn so much from their beautiful spirits...

So my question is...Do you believe that somewhere in time...in the Universe....our souls gather and make agreements to find each other in this lifetime to move us along on our journey?  That they come as teachers, lovers, friends, children, even those difficult folks......that they have that special something we need to wake us up if  we might be sleeping...They bring us experiences to help us become more compassionate, wiser, softer, tougher, braver, more loving...?  
And if we are open enough will we recognize them and why they've come?
 Will we cherish them? Welcome them? Or will we miss the connection this time around?  Maybe you and me are Kindreds?? xoxo

....life.

On October 26th babies Phoenix & Haiven were brought early into the world via an emergency c-section. Neither baby weighed more than 1 lb 12 oz…very, very tiny. And their skin so paper thin that I could actually see their hearts flutter.
They had all their finger and toes…and in my mind that meant that they were going live happy, blessed lives because I knew they were in a hospital where they would receive the best of care.

I had no idea, none, of all the many obstacles they would face each and every minute, and the many milestones they needed to meet.

In the neonatal ICU world of lights, beeps, buzzers and numbers on a screen, every second seems like victory…yet you are constantly reminded of how everything is so precarious…
little lives with such a thin cord holding them to us.

It is amazing how quick and easy it is to fall in love with such innocence, it literally happens in a flash of light…babies come into this life as pure love no matter the circumstances. I fell in love as did everyone who was touched by them during their brief time on this plane.

Phoenix, the big brother, left rather quickly…just under 3 days… a little less than 72 hours…We put all our hopes in the Haiven…a lot of hope for such a little boy. He survived heart surgery, and so many changing of tubes and procedures, imaging’s and different combos of medicines to keep infections at bay…and as the 3 week milestone approached we had reason to be hopeful….but his little body experienced a sudden flurry of things that simply went wrong and his parents made the heart wrenching decision to let him pass over.

I have a friend who says they never came to stay…that they indeed were little angels who brought us their gifts and quickly went back from where they came.

We had an Honoring for them.
Ritual is good……
the babies parents were showered in love, compassion and empathy…
they went through so much heartache,
friends and family stood witness to their pain and loss..…
We walked a labyrinth with paths of painted flowers and lit candles in thanks to Phoenix and Haiven for bringing more love into our lives and for bringing us all closer together.

I have asked myself why???? one thousand times.
This has been a crazy with grief, sad time, for everyone who had their hearts opened and softened by the birth of the tiny spirits that were Phoenix and Haiven…our angels. That is the gift they brought an opening up to make room for more love…a bigger, stronger, connection to the people we love…
They softened us towards each other, gave us a greater capacity for compassion.


Right now we are all so tender, the sorrow still comes in such big waves…unexpectedly, totally without warning. As with all pain, time heals…
I know this too will pass, leaving us more in touch with our humanity….closer.